December 13, 2023, Wednesday
“Every day I wake up is a good day.”
I hear older captives say this all the time. After 7 years of torture and abuse, beatings, failing health being used as a means of punishment, and a nonstop barrage of psychological trauma at the hands of Virginia’s police, prosecutors, and DOC employees, I must emphatically disagree. I cannot, even with serious effort, remember the last time I was happy to be alive. I can, in fact, clearly remember waking up every day for the last 7 years, cursing my life and the cruel people who have done this injustice to me.
I have antagonized those captives who talk a big game, daring them to stab me in the throat. I’ve even considered getting an “X” tattoo on my jugular just so there is no doubt about where exactly to stab me, hopefully with my own pen. What better irony is there? I certainly have a plan for my own demise. Fairly well thought out after 7 yes and, given the laziness and ineptitude, and general lack of care that DOC staff exemplify, no one will notice until long after the fact. The truly sad part of this line of thinking is that honor and justice demand the death of the police, prosecutor, and VA DOC staff who have destroyed a man who was nothing ut good and honest. Instead, I am close to giving up than ever before.
I have fought long and heard through the worst hell. I’ve documented the whole journey. I survived a near-fatal traumatic brain injury. I survived the years of domestic abuse and captivity of my ex-wife, who prevented my getting medical and mental-health care as she stole all of my assets. I survived a rogue police officer’s breaking into my house and opening fire on me in the dark of night, without cause or warrant. I survived a near-fatal beating—including at least six more concussive head lows—at the hands of other rogue officers that same night.
For surviving, I was further victimized by a petty maniac of a VA Commonwealth Attorney who never uttered an honest word. Finally ending up in the most nefarious prison—after solitary confinement and several more beatings at the regional jail—where I endured 6 more years of concentration-camp-style abuses, physical and psychological.
Now, in the VA DOC rotation of its stock—human captives—–I’ve been put into a dorm environment where I can watch my psychological well-being eroding even further. A complete and total cascade failure is more than likely. The blame is easily placed, with zero room for refutation or debate. I pray each night that all of the head trauma will finally catch up. Light and sound sensitivity, aphasia, failing eyesight, constant severe headaches, vertigo, intense panic, and social anxieties…can I please just go to sleep quietly and not wake up? It would be far easier, for everyone, than if I am forced to take my own life, an option I have always kept on the back burner.
My supporters will quickly forget I ever was, I would think. My family has been all but silent these 7 years, even when the clear and unequivocal evidence of my wrongful conviction was shown. There are those who publish my writing; at least I am documented as having ever existed. Only three of my friends are even remotely present, but it very rarely goes beyond answering the phone. My writing—especially my willingness to be open and candid about my experience—gains regular praise, but I’d rather that energy be put into screaming from the rooftops, or mobilizing a long-overdue rebellion; even some good old-fashioned mob justice against the diabolic evil people who did this to me would be preferred to another pat on the back or sympathetic voice.
There are upwards of 5,000 others like me being held captive in despotic Virginia. This state is a disgrace and must be purged from the planet. But Americans are lazy and cowardly, and they would rather end a knee than stand tall. In my case, dead bodies tend to get press, and questions asked…..so I hope I die in my sleep or find the courage to take matters into my own hands.
David Annarelli
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Dillwyn Correctional
1522 Prison Road
Dillwyn, VA 23936
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